I spent some time last week working with my Akashic Records, just because having a look at everything that ever was, is, and will be, since before the beginning and to no end definitely brings a sense of perspective to this super weird global pandemic time. Now, if you’ve never heard of the Akashic Records, it’s just that: a record of ALL OF IT. All of it. Needless to say, as a human, we cannot deal with ALL OF IT. Mafalda, my favorite comic strip as a child, totally gets why. 

“You realize what would happen if there was no distance, Felipe? Everything would be here, everything: The Beatles, The Berlin Wall, The Lone Ranger, Vietnam, Disneyland, the Klu Klux Klan, Cuba…do you realize?” Felipe passes out. Yes, he does realize, says Mafalda. Ha.

So when accessing the Akashic Records, we really don’t want to try to access everything at once. It is, however, quite useful to access the information we need right now. And in that work, I gained reassurance that I do not need to feel weird because I’m not feeling afraid, or because I’m not grieving, or sad. It is perfectly OK to feel excited about what the future may bring, because for the first time in my life, it feels like transformation is not only possible but actually unavoidable.

My friend Zara calls freaking out from London: “what if I lose my job, what if I can’t pay my rent?” Fuck, I hate that feeling. That feeling in my belly that I genuinely do not see a path forward, that I don’t know how I’m gonna make it, or if I’ll be OK. But I don’t have that feeling now. Like I told Zara, if you default on your rent, you’ll probably be one of millions of people in the same situation. We are LITERALLY all in this together. This was never meant to be a metaphor, and it is starting to no longer be understood as such by many who didn’t quite see it this way before. So if you are in a tight financial spot, “they” will not come after you like they might have a year ago, because there will be millions of you. And we all will be forced to find a better solution, a systemic approach, a new way of operating that makes sense, finally, for most of us.

I really do hope the end goal is not to go back to normal. Normal has sucked for most of us for way too long, normal is destroying the planet, has us in a panic, disrespects basic human dignity. Normal is careless and even cruel, normal makes us feel like we are failing. Normal is not aligned with true value: human life and love. 

So what did I find in my Akashic Records this week? Guidance to take action. It’s really quite specific for me: “speak and write”. How exactly this is manifesting, I don’t really know yet. But I have ignored my own intuition in the past at my own peril, and the Akashic Records are not something I’m gonna push against, especially when I asked, and I did receive an answer. For now, I am talking people off the ledge on the phone, a lot, on the daily, all my beloveds who are more anxious and stressed out than I am. And writing. Because while I’m not sure what good will actually come out of me doing this, what I do know is that continuing to want to “do more” and “be productive” is the thinking of a system that is dying and is trying to kill us all in the process. And I sure as fuck won’t go down with it. Happy New Moon in Aries, y’all. Dream a new dream that can very much begin today.